oh, in rush to complete my 2000words essay..
so..
i ponteng tutorial & lecture..
sejam je pon..
and guess what, bleh plak time lecture tu amek attendance..
bengong..
tak penah2 pon, tetibe arini nak amek lak..huhu
kelam kelibut la..
pastu cam budak2 skola plak, ade nk report kt tutor?
tak patut tak patut..

p/s: 310310>> hai! selamat berkenalan!

its 2.35 in the morning, yet i cant sleep..
nervously waiting for a mail..
huhu..


to whom it may concerned, i've been dedicating this song to you these 2, 3 weeks..


takin back my love - enrique ft ciara..

I give it all up, but I’m taking back my love,
I’m taking back my love,
I’m taking back my love,
I’ve given you too much,
but I’m taking back my love,
I’m taking back my love, my love, my love, my love, my love

but right now, seriously it hurts..
then my heart starts singing unbreak my heart- toni braxton

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry this tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my

Un-break my heart oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....


all those words are meant for you..
you know who you are..
and i just want to let you know,
these mixed feelings,
it's weird, and it hurts..

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umm..
hari yang muram..
hari-hari yang tidak menyeronokkan..
kesedihan melanda..
apabila hobi tidak lagi menjadi hobi..

waaaaaaaaaaa..
aku rindu nak masak..
rentetan saucepan aku hilang tanpa dapat dikesan bersama senduk,
tiada lagi keghairahan memasak..saucepan mahal tu, 30 dolar tau!

hmm..
jadinya, sekarang masak apa pon jadi tak sedap..
entahla, aku rasa aku macam reti masak..
tapi makin lama makin tak sedap pulak..
adakah salah saucepan hilang?
atau dapur tidak berapi?
mungkinkah cili powder x sedap macam cili kering-rebus-pastu blend?
atau kicap yang sangat masin dan terlalu cair?
mungkin juga salah santan peket?
benarkah kerana masak di tepi orang yang masak pork?
atau aku sebenarnya tak reti masak??

hmm..
asyik merungut je keje..
ape2 aku buat sekarang semua tak menjadi..
tak suka tak suka!
rindu nak masak..
kat rumah..
kat maktab bilik d15..
huuuuuu~ nak nangeh!

p/s: sedang menunggu kacang hijau menjadi taugeh..nak masak mee kari, yay!

effective learning style?
wow, tajuk itu sungguh academic oriented..
umm..apakah yg dimaksudkan dengan effective learning style?
haha bertambah gempak bunyinya..

padahal takde mende..
ini hanyalah cerita pasal kemalasan aku untuk belajar..
aku memang problematic bila ade sangkut paut dengan academic task..
huhu..based on the VARK test, aku ni under category visual n verbal learner..jadinya, perlu bagi tumpuan banyak2 masa lecture n sambil tu catat note..
itu dh lama aku tau..
yg terbaru, baru tau kene dok depan2 or in T zone,
so that bleh fokus n would not be distracted by others' movement ke ape2 jela..
dan satu lagi yang aku kenal style aku,
i have to talk to myself or somebody else
masa nk digest lecture tu..
jadinya, lecturer dok cakap kat depan,
aku pon dok mengupas isu yang lecturer tengah cakap kat depan tu
untuk didigestkan bersama2 cliques aku cik hanis dan cik haliana..
hahaha..memang orang sumpah seranah kat aku la sebab bising..
tiap2 hari kena tegur..

hmmm..kalau bab assignment and study skills,
aku memang orang yang jenis buat last minute work..
walaupon dah paksa2 diri suruh study or revise pape,
aku tak boleh nak fokus..
aku boleh je baca notes yang berpuluh2 helai tu,
tapi aku rasa aku buat benda bodoh..
kenapa?
sebab aku tak paham apa2 yang aku baca..
tapi..
bila waktu dah suntuk or bila aku nak kene wat kerja lain pulak,
tiba2 kalau baca sebaris ayat pon terus paham,
dan mood pon terus datang..
oh inikah namanya swing mood?
entahla..

hmmm..aku memang salute sangat2 dengan orang2 yang mampu plan
and laksanakan kerja2 mereka on time..
i did plan my work, tapi x pernah carry out plan tu..
i've tried, tp failed!
i'm too good at wasting my time..haha..
macam sekarang ni..
menulis tanpa motif,erkk?
asalnya nk on laptop sebab nk print soalan assignment,
tapi pegi menulis blog pulak..
tulis essay assignment tak mau pulak..aduh..
macam mana la nak atasi sikap malas dan suka bertangguh ni?
ini dari darjah satu lagi muka ni slalu tak siap keja skolah
kene duduk kt luar kelas kena buat sampai siap..
and imagine, pasni nak jadi cikgu plak tu..
alahai..habisla anak2 murid aku..
semangat memang tinggi nak mengajar, tapi pemalas macam hape je..
macam mana la nanti keje lesson plan ke mana,
nak marking buku anak murid lagi, nk tanda kertas soalan exam lagi..fuhfuh..

p/s: mari mendoakan diri kita semua supaya rajin2 belajar menimba ilmu pengetahuan, amin..

ehem..
just got back from hanis's surprise burfday party..
towards the end, we played this truth-or-dare game..
it was nice, to know my close friends' secrets, especially
regarding the GUY/S in their lives..hahaha..

luckily it was just an easy question adressed to me, if not, OMAIGOD!!
because frankly speaking, i was a bit nervous
bout what they are going to ask me..
because i know this undeniable fact:

the question must be on the two guys that i've been involved in..

the last time i played te game, i did confess something..
but now, it's easier to confess things,
because yeah, i'm super clean from the so called IT'S COMPLICATED relationship circle..huhu


but then, when somebody asked about the quiz result that i took in fb, oh demn..
i havent prepare the suitable script for the question..
i ended up saying that it was just a quiz..
doesnt relly mean anything to me..
oh is it?
oh i dont know, don't care, not sure..

hmm..

Adakah anda menyesal kerana bercouple dengan si dia sekarang?

Result: Sedikit menyesal dan terbeban!

Anda merasa sedikit terbeban dan menyesal kerana bercouple dengan si dia. Walaubagaimanapun, anda masih sayangkan si dia tetapi dalam masa yang sama anda memendam rasa suka kepada orang lain dan mengharapkan orang yang anda suka(dalam diam) untuk menyukai anda.

whatever it is, past is past..i cant turn back the time, so let's move on..maybe lagu Alyah- tak mungkin kerana sayang, is the most suitable song that i can dedicate to my dearie chipsmore..though i was once dedicated to katy perry's thinking of you..and that katy perry really suits me..thanx, anyway..

"Could I Have This Kiss Forever"

Over and over I look in your eyes
you are all I desire
you have captured me
I want to hold you
I want to be close to you
I never want to let go
I wish that this night would never end
I need to know

Could I hold you for for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

Over and over I've dreamed of this night
Now you're here by my side
You are next to me
I want to hold you and touch you taste you
And make you want no one but me
I wish that this kiss could never end
oh baby please

Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

I don't want any night to go by
Without you by my side
I just want all my days
Spent being next to you
Lived for just loving you
And baby, oh by the way

Could I hold you for a lifetime
Could I look into your eyes
Could I have this night to share this night together
Could I hold you close beside me
Could I hold you for all time
Could I have this kiss forever
Could I could I have this kiss forever, forever

case study:

sebulan yang lepas, residence hall aku telah mengadakan
welcoming party untuk new residents..
oleh sebab teruja dengan BBQ yang diwar-warkan,
ramaila orang yang join party ni..
aku pon termasuklah, sebab dapat makan free..
lagipon, kami diberitahu bahawa halal food will be provided..
so, no doubt langsung la masa tengah queue nk ambil makanan tu..
aku pon ambiklah beberapa keping daging burger..
bercampur la tebal nipis x kira dah..
nak dijadikan cerita, Allison si manager Huia residence ni
nampakla dalam pinggan aku n yana, ade banyak burger..
so dia pon tegur, cakap, excuse me..u can have only one burger and one lamb..
n besides, i dont think that those burger are halal..
oh WTF! memang macam ape je la..
seyes kami tekejut sangat sebab tadi dia cakap semua makanan adalah halal..
kami pon cepat2 letak balik burger2 tu..
masing2 still blur tak tau nak buat ape..
line pulak dah makin dekat ngan tray roti2,
so kami letak jela roti2 tu atas pinggan bekas pork burger td tu..
di samping tu mulut pon bising2 la pass msg
kt other Muslims yg sebenarnya daging2 burger tu semua tak halal..
masalahnya, dah ramai muslim friends
yang dah start makan meal diorang,
sebab diorang dah beratur lagi awal..
masa tengah makan roti and salad tu,
kami bincang2 la pasal benda ni,
and masing2 memang marahla sebab
si Allison tu wat maen2 pasal benda halal haram ni..
akan jadi darah daging kot..hmm..

persoalannya..

cane dengan pinggan n tangan kami
yang pegang2 pork burger tu?
kene samak ke tak samak?
benda ni dah sebulan berlaku,
baru semalam aku terpikir balik pasal benda ni..
hanis cakap, dia was2..aku pon was2..yana pon was2..

bila tengok kt internet, perlu ke disamak pinggan tu,
ada yang cakap perlu, ada yang cakap x..

Dalil Kenajisan Khinzir Dan Cara Menyucikannya.

Dalil yang digunakan dalam kefahaman ini ialah firman Allah Subhanahu wa Ta‘ala:

Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): “Aku tidak dapati dalam apa yang telah diwahyukan kepadaku, sesuatu yang diharamkan bagi orang yang hendak memakannya melainkan kalau benda itu bangkai, atau darah yang mengalir, atau daging babi - kerana sesungguhnya ia adalah najis.” [al-An’aam 6:145]

Jika daging khinzir adalah najis, sudah tentu keseluruhan badan dan anggota khinzir adalah najis juga. Ini kerana daging merupakan bahagian yang utama bagi seekor haiwan sehingga jika ia najis, sudah tentu selainnya adalah najis.

Cara untuk menyucikan diri daripada khinzir ialah menyamaknya dengan tujuh basuhan air dengan basuhan yang pertama disertai dengan tanah. Ini merujuk kepada cara menyucikan diri daripada sentuhan anjing berdasarkan hadis:


“Apabila seekor anjing minum dalam bekas salah seorang daripada kamu, maka basuhlah ia tujuh kali.” [Shahih al-Bukhari – hadis no: 172 (Kitab Wudhu, Bab jika anjing minum daripada bekas air……)]

oleh sebab malas nak berwaswas lagi,
pagi tadi tanpa berlengah2 terus turun bawah amek tanah dan samak!
alhamdulillah, rasa lega..senang je prosesnya..


ini tanah, amek kt depan pintu depan huia je,InsyaAllah suci kot?


ini proses menyamak,basuhan pertama dengan air tanah


ini pinggan yang sudah suci, hmmm barula rasa lega sangat2

Ya Allah
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikanlah hatiku
Dengan ketentuan-Mu

whoaaa..it's been a while in oklen..adapting lots of changes,like this: start to use lots of skincare product..auww..
rimasla asyik kene pakai cream2 sunblock2 nih..
when i was in malaysia, x sentuh pon mende2 ni..
even xde pon..haish tipula xde langsung, adela sket2 contohnya lipbalm je..je? yes, itu je yg saya pakai before this..
though mak saya keje skinclinic ke pe ke, doesnt mean that i jage kulit bagi anjal2 gebu2 ni..hee..

the weather here is very tricky..it's very windy, yet it's hot..
windy leads to skin hidration, while the hot sun makes my skin burnnn..
n all these equal to kulit kedut2 n hitam pulak tu..haishh..

haa..jadinya, x leh malas2 menyapu tangan dengan losyen2 sume nih..
kalo x, abehla kedut2 mcm makcik2 punye tangan..hehe..
i dh experinced mende ni..
baru 2, 3 minggu kt sini dh kedut abeh, kalo tunggu 2 taun bayangkanlah..
so cepat2 pegi beli hand cream..

anddddddddddddddddddddd..
here it is..



inila hand cream saya.. Palmer's concentrated cream..
ummm..seriously sangat best..
baru pakai 3, 4 kali, and it works on my skin..
weeee..bau dia mengancam abeh, wangi kot~
imagine u lalu tepi bakery house yg ade chocolate chips, haaa..camtula bau dia..memang betul2 bau cocoa+butter..demn nice..
price dia dlm $5-7 je..x ingatla..tp ade yg size besar n murah je, about $8 kot..
ini sebab saya sedar diri yg diri sangat malas nk pakai sume mende lady2like nih, so beli yg handy size la.. sebelum lecture start, baru i pakai..
even bleh apply masa tgh tgu bas.. kalo beli size besar, sumpah mesti x pakai punya..sebab sunblock yg dipakai di mesia, dh bape taun tp baru pakai suku botol pon x sampai..

*lepas ni, kene gi cari hair moisturizer lak..even pakai tudung, tp rambut kering gile..sebab tep2 ari mandi air panas..huuu duit lagi*

lecture dh start..gle pack schedule aku..tep2 ari balik pukul 4@5..melampau btol..ada break bout 1 or 2 hours, tp sape larat nk balik Huia wehhhh..pegi balik dekat sejam gakla..

so today dh start dgr lecture..omaigod, i tak paham slang omputih la..i malayu kampung, cakap english pon pelat kedah gak..ahahaha..no no..it's not bout that..kampung2 pon i've make it okeh?

1st day class pon, ramai yg tdo..tp i x tdo, sengguk2 angguk2 geleng2 je..
maunye x tdo,
~kelas time org tido, 2-4p.m..
~cakap serius2 x wat lawak lgsung..pastu wat lawak pon orang x paham sebab ape dia cakap pon orang x phm..
~content level tinggi sangat la..tunjuk la graf manyak2 g, sape nk phm..
~handout print seniri..x da handout, nganga la langut tgk ohp tu, xdak notes nk catat..

baru nk nyesal x appreciate lgsung bila dok lam lecture class kt mesia..
~dhla tesol xde klas petang..1.15pm balik pastu tdo je..heaven!
~lecturer ckp standard english biasa2 siap wat lawak, aku g men msg ngan dia tu..
~handout dpt free x penah baca..balik kelas, siap punch masuk file, 1 tanda highlighter pon xdak..huhu

so azam baru pada hari ini, mau balik mesia cepat2!!hahaha..