honestly, i was so shocked when i received your sms.. kaget,terpempan..
i already got the stimulus..
this thing (the way u sms me) already happened last year..
exactly the same..
i could still remember the date..
24th april 2008 if i'm not mistaken..
oh God; seriously it hurts me..
if ya only knew what i've gone through after that..

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe this could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaning
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening

As we die both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry

Chrous

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me
I can se us dying...are we?

*don't speak by gwen stefani

that's why i straight away gave u a call..
we talked..
and finally, i figured out what's happening to u..
it was another different story, not like in the past yaw?
i'm so sorry dear..

but then, thanks for being honest..
and willing to spill out ur thoughts, and feelings..
ya know, i really appreciate that..
the bravery of yours..

for me, actually i've already planned to do the same, but not really the same lah..
i've been thinking 'bout just leaving u once i get out from this place..
and i've told ya right?maybe u don't get me kot..

we talked about that awkward, undefined feeling that had lingered us for the past one and half years..
we spilled out everything..
we confessed honestly..

and at the end, we got to know that we shared the same feeling; right?
it is complicated..
but we are clearer of that now..
before this i don't have the gut to talk openly 'bout this dilemma..

and thanks, you've helped me to define what's that feeling..
and finally, i do understand myself better..much better..much much better..

i do love him and i wont leave him,Insyaallah..
i know my limit when i'm with u..
so, no worries please..
and i hope u also won't get me wrong..
i love u..yes i do..
but for the time being, i love u as my best buddy; ever..

so..
i hope that in the future..
u will always know, and remember..
that someone that is me, used to love u..
i'm glad to admit that, and i'm glad that u said thank you when i confessed that..
it seemed that u do appreciate my feeling..

and..
when we leave this place soon..
we'll be able to say that
we do have sweet memories here..
that is between u and me..
it's ok if u are not saying that,
but one thing for sure, it's gonna be a sweet memory..
at least for me..

a friendly voice i like to hear at any time of day..
an understanding ear when there are things i need to say..
its all that i could ever need..
all that a friend could be..
the bond we share is such a very special thing to me..